[ no, it won't all go the way, it should ]

:3 here comes bb ~

2009-07-13T06:56:36Z

soooo.... devin will be here tomorrow around 9:25am :]

& i should be asleep since i have class at 7am & i need to shower & get all pretty before that since i have to head to the airport right after class.

but i'm too excited, as always ~

& i'm cleaning XD my car is FINALLY done after about 4 1/2 hours (i'm slow & the car was BAD) x___x; i went crazy on it. but, it's practically new looking :3 so now, even though it's nearly 12am, i need to tackle my room for a bit then crash for a few hours.

X3!!!

oh, & i don't care how much they beg, because i have a feeling they will, i am NOT going in to work tomorrow. NONONONONONO! D8<

ja~!

specialty ~

2009-07-11T23:05:05Z

so the more time i spend in the hospital, the more i begin to think about what i would like to specialize in. & while it's almost always been a given that i would want to head into pediatrics i'm thinking more & more that labor & delivery might be more up my alley.

then again though, this could be all the placentas i keep running into talking. 8D

seriously ._____.

if i do decide to stick with peds though, i'd definitely want to be involved in a children's hospital rather than a hospital with just a small peds ward :]

random thoughts for the future i guess ^___^ ~

ja~!

promotion? maybe? 8D ~

2009-07-11T03:53:36Z

so i've only been at this new job a little less than a month & management has already been talking about how they'd like to train me for diet clerk. which would be awesome! :3 i would love to have a job where i can wear cute officey clothes & a lab coat X3 omomom.

~

also these:

are fucking yummy ~ & because i get free food at my job i've been stocking up on them for my roadtrips when devin is here XD; it's actually pretty funny. i think i have like 9 or so in my drawer 8D it's hard not eating them now .____.

~

& i realized that i'm losing my sense of maturity in my relationship again. i think for some reason i do better when i go out with friends a lot, but because of my job i usually end up just hanging around at home.

i need to remember: me time, his time & our time.

in the end i feel a lot better & less stressed when i really acknowledge the separation of the three. but also, while i know it's social, i've been getting a little bothered at the fact that he's been drinking a lot more lately & staying out all night. :S

it's so frustrating that it makes me cry.

next week just needs to come so that i can stop dwelling on all of these bothersome things & finally have a REAL SUMMER & be happy.

~

i'm feeling like some jager & root beer. so i'm out ~

& ew i have work at 6a >___O

ja~!

semi-long post is overdue ~

2009-07-10T05:44:20Z

stfu. i know i used a joe jonas icon...

it's weird that i don't update this more often. if even just for my sake. it's nice to have a reminder of your life no matter how little or insignificant the things you were doing at the time were.

~

anyway. work is starting to kick my butt, only because i'm showing i learn fast. people are asking me to do a million things at once and... i like it, a lot actually. i get to keep to myself & stay out of drama & just observe how the hospital runs & do minimum wage work while i get paid pretty damn well. it's irritating, yes, when you're short handed and have to stay longer without them even asking you; or the fact that i pretty much can't request a weekend off blows... but i need to do what i need to do & just make time to do things when i can.

i was also thinking that if things work the way they are that maybe within a few months i'll become a diet clerk? would be interesting & kind of nice to get to dress up & wear a lab coat at work 8D

~

my summer class is ALMOST DONE, OMG YES! * 3 * one week from today is my final, & while i don't think i can pull an A (v___v; shame on me for missing quizzes)i can without a doubt pull a B, which is still good! :3 at least it's something out of the way ~

and is one step closer to getting me off of fucking academic probation =___=

speaking of school though. i need to take my TEAS exam for the nursing program soon. i'm sure i won't fuck up because really, you just need to pass each subject with 60%, except for reading which you need an 80%. but as if i can't do that :P but, maybe i shouldn't get over-confident >__>; watch me mess up now. you can only retake it every 6 months & if i take it August 15th, 6 months will be right before i plan to apply & if i take it a month later (September 19th) it'll be right after the application deadline... IF i need to retake it. gotta start studying now it looks like! :3

as for my schedule fall semester ~ tuesday, thursday & friday are when i have classes. at the moment it looks like this:

Tuesday (Cheyenne Campus): 930a-1050a BIO223 Anatomy&Physiology
1100a-200p BIO223Lab

Thursday (Cheyenne Campus): 930a-1050a BIO223
??? MUSA 157 Private Flute Instruction (i have to arrange class time)

Friday (Charleston Campus): 930a-1220p ENG101 (AGAIN, STFU ; 3 ;)
100p-350p COM101 Oral Communication

not that swamped ~ but biology classes are usually butt kickers :S whether or not you're good in the subject. i was able to get the same teacher for lecture & lab, so hopefully that's a good thing XD for once i'd like it if my labs would correlate more directly with my lectures instead of trying to find the missing link myself.

and seriously... I'M SO EXCITED TO GET BACK INTO PLAYING MY FLUTE~! it was such a huge part of my life for like 5 years. i'm actually surprised at myself that i let it go so fast & easily. hopefully after this semester i'll either 1. continue with lessons or 2. get back into group performance either through concert band or orchestra ♥ ah! really, so excited X3

~

this summer though, aside from big-ass philippines trip... which i STILL owe at least a short picture post to... has been pretty mundane & really has just been me hanging out with ottershark & going nuts over pokemon.

of course some little things have happened here and there. the main thing coming to mind is me spraining my ankle while flying kites at night XD; but yeaaaaaah.

which is why my heart is leaping for joy in the fact my bb will be here on monday morning :3 ♥ seriously. seeing each other every 2-4 months has to be some sort of torture. at times i wish i were adventurous & risk-taking enough to just decide to move out there for awhile... but i feel like i have so much more of a life here than he does there. it sounds mean, but it's true. and i just want him to fucking pack & move here, but i really don't know when i should expect that to happen.

i told him that seriously, we better live together before we've been a couple for 4 years. that's December 2010, so i feel that amount of time should suffice before we make a decision like that... but really. i know starting out LD makes us different from conventional couples, but you'd think that the desire would be there more BECAUSE we've been LD the whole time.

blargh... i need to stop dwelling on this so much because even though i bitch. i can honestly say that right now, we're in a very good place in our relationship. :3 ♥

& sadly, i can say that his visit & the mini trips we're taking are most likely going to be the only real things i do this summer XD;

~

NOW, IF YOU DIDN'T READ ANY OF THAT BECAUSE IT WAS FUCKING LONG, IF YOU'RE GOING TO HARRY POTTER WITH ME ON TUESDAY NIGHT AT LEAST READ THIS PART

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! B|

- we're going to see the movie at Red Rock at 12:10a
- dressing up is most definitely encouraged ~ you know that :3
- before that, most likely around 8pm, we should meet at my house for HP nerding out (essentially enjoying some Butterbeer & Pumpkin pasties before we go on our merry way 8D)
- don't be a pussy :U even if you have work in the morning you should fucking come DX

so yeah :3 if you want anymore details call or message me~!

~

aaand yeah .___. maybe my period is making my emotions flow like my blood D8

GROOOOSSSSS XD

8D

ja~!

monies :3 ~

2009-06-30T23:44:59Z

usually when i talk about money it's me worrying that i won't have enough, or that i bought something stupid that i shouldn't have or something along those lines.

but with this new job, for once in my working life i don't feel like i need to worry.

& this is a first for me... but i think i might be getting first 4 DIGIT check this friday...

I
AM
SO
EXCITED!

:]♥

ja~!

i paid for this? D8! ~

2009-06-05T01:36:12Z

i really need to post more since i have a PAID account.... even though i more or less paid for more icons 8D... oh yeah, and no ads :P

anyhoo. some recent events in life include:

~ unfortunately failing math (because i couldn't take the final)
~ but! passing biology with a B! 8D FINALLY I CAN MOVE ON!
~ going to the philippines for 3 weeks! (which is why i couldn't take my math final :P)
~ getting a new job at St. Rose Dominican Hospital, yay!
~ out of nowhere going crazy about pokemon all over again... x__x;
~ planning my future semesters in school & signing up to retake math starting on monday

i'll make a nice post when i have time & upload some pics. i know i always say that, but i really should do it. XD;

intense room/bathroom/house/car cleaning is going on... so i need to stop slacking .___.

ja~!

it's the little things ~

2009-04-27T22:09:19Z

my mom told me today that she likes devin.

she even listed a few things to support that.

and devin... without me bringing it up at all, told me he's finally seriously thinking about moving here.

what's funny, is i don't even think they really know how much they really made my day. :] ♥

ja~!

summer :] ~

2009-04-24T18:23:58Z

it seems that the end of the semester is fast approaching, and the time to cram & do papers & essentially dedicate every possible second of free time to my classes. & i'm oddly excited about it! i just want this semester to be done! x___x; there's so much left for me to do though, gah.

anyway ~ i leave for the philippines on the 7th of may. i'll be gone for 3 weeks as most of you already know. & despite this whole thing causing me problems i know it's going to be an amazing time.... mainly, and i know they're crazy looking, i get to go see tarsiers!!! * 3 *

wahahaha! i'm so excited XD

anyway ~ i missed priority registration for summer classes, so HOPEFULLY i get into either COM101 or SOC101 this summer. it'll also depend on if tickets from new orleans to vegas go on sale with southwest (they're having a 50% off sale the 4 days, but they're only for 4 cities that they're gonna reveal once a day... if you're interested it's at southwest.com/dailydeal ) 'cause i don't want to have class & work all the time if devin is here :)

also, completely random note. my dad is going to europe at the end of september. devin and i were thinking about going for a week :3 it would unfortunately be at the time of your b-day, chris. but it's because my aunt that has the same b-day as you is turning 80 :) woo! my old german family 8D lol.

so yeah... i should get back to updating this regularly since i paid for my account :P

gym time, research then work! ;P lovely day.

ja~!

emi_takarai @ 2009-04-09T20:30:00

2009-04-10T03:31:58Z

so... life is like kicking me in the mouth right now.

- this philippines trip is turning out to be a little more troublesome than i was hoping. it better be worth it in the end.

- work is being a bunch of assholes. don't be surprised if i have to look for a new job when i get back from the phils. :U

- my math teacher is saying now that i might have to take my final AFTER i get back from my trip... which is like 3 weeks later, because i can't take it ONE WEEK early. i don't even make friends in my classes, it's not like i'm going to share XP blah.

- i have a ton of homework to catch up on... including my english papers, which i haven't started because i don't have the books because i had to use my book money to get my passport :| (thank god i get paid tomorrow T__T)

- devin would've been here today... but there's no point in bitching about that anymore :[

- i was all sorts of pissed that i can't take BIO223 over the summer because it starts on May 19th and i come back May 28th... but now i find out that i can't take it anyway because grades won't be posted in time.. which sets me back like 9 months - 1 year from my original goal. *sigh*

but i will say... among all of these "negative" things...

- i'm taking my diet and exercise program very seriously :] and i'm happy to say that 8 pounds are gone so far.

- for the first time in the 4 times i've registered for BIO189... I UNDERSTAND IT AND LIKE IT! YAY SCIENCE! X3... kind of, we're still not really best friends XD;

[EDIT
for some reason this posted o__o; and it wasn't meant to be cuz i wasn't done yet. anyway... this is what was missing:

- and though we have to postpone seeing each other until the summer, devin and i are doing pretty good. :3

lol, 3 positive out of this plethora of negativity.

though i will admit, the past few hours have been a little gloomy for me. i need to push these thoughts out of my head... they don't help me at all.

ja~!

i can't help it :[ ~

2009-04-02T07:48:38Z

even though i'm trying to be happy and positive and just look forward to a longer time together in the summer, i can't help but still be sad over the fact that i don't get to be with you in a week.

which means i don't get to see you for pretty much 4 months. and i hate it so fucking hard because it's so, SO hard for me to put it in the back of my mind.

but at the same time it might be a blessing in disguise because of all my assignments and exams coming up.

but still... poop. :[ distance hurts.

i go cry now.

ja~!

82! i almost forgot! 8D ~

2009-03-23T07:14:58Z

my dad's birthday was yesterday!

he turned 82!

8D

i know, he's totally awesome ~ i need to get him a gift since he's coming into town tomorrow. *headdesk* i completely forgot D8

that's honestly kind of it, since i don't want to keep blogging gloom :P

though my entry tomorrow might be a little bit about that only because i feel sort of like ranting.

&PICS! :]

ja~!

woops ~

2009-03-22T07:01:21Z

it's been over a month since i last updated 8D;

i have the pictures for that fucking meme that was in my last entry, but my camera is downstairs. therefore i'll put them up tomorrow.

anyway ~ i'm back home from spending a week in louisiana with my bb for spring break ♥

needless to say i'm pretty gloomy right now. because of course, like usual, the change from being together to being alone is so sudden, that it makes it seem like none of our time together even happened.

which is just sad because when i'm with him, it's a completely different level of happiness. like honestly, everything's alright.

*sigh* :[

and just... the first night is always the hardest for me v___v; because it keeps replaying in my head the fact that last night, i was cuddling in bed with him, falling asleep to a movie and i was completely happy.

we need to do something about the distance. :|

ja~!

STOLEN! :o ~

2009-02-12T07:40:32Z

Make a request for me to take a picture of anything. And I'll make a separate journal entry later to upload the requests.

shoot! 8D

ja~!

crack?! 8D ~

2009-02-08T09:38:06Z

last night i had a dream that devin was iron man... and he had to save the world with juggernaut or something.

we were in the bahamas, where we put money in a GIANT slot machine that you had to use GIANT coins to play. we walked away while the reels were still spinning and sat down on the ground a good 20 feet away from it... and then a random lady walked up to it, cashed out our money and just took it. :|

after the disappointment in the lady taking our money, we went to this empty bar, jumped the counter and then had sex in the cabinets under the counter... and his whole iron man getup was gone at that point.

yeah... i dunno. lol.

sleepy time! 8D

ja~!

motivational reminder ~

2009-02-06T20:12:57Z

so holy crap. last night at work was probably one of the most painful nights of my life. i had to constantly stop myself from crying the whole night. both of my legs, entirely from the tops of my thighs to my ankles, were ACHING with muscle pain. my knees hurt so bad it felt like they were going to explode. much like this:

my elbows ached so bad they felt like they would snap, and i could barely lift both of my arms without it feeling like something was hardcore pinching in my shoulders. not to mention i was hot and sweating, i had a headache and a stuffed nose with nasty, thick, phlegm.

so i got home, popped a couple of aleve, slept... and i'm all sorts of better today 8D thank god~ the only thing that's still lingering a little bit is the mucus, but i'll take that over body pain.

anyway, the subject of this entry has to deal with this... so i got bored yesterday (when i really shouldn't have and should've studied more than i did XP) and i ended up looking at scrubs and stuff. and so i was thinking about maybe buying a set of scrubs to kind of serve as a daily reminder and motivate me towards my goal in school.

do you think it's weird, or should i do it? in the end i'm probably gonna do it regardless of what anyone says, but yeah.

of course i want to order disney ones XD; they have really cute ones with the cheshire cat, the dalmatians, ratatouille, etc. :3 and since i want to work in pediatrics i could probably use them in the future ~ so why not, right?

i guess i'm just looking for validation XD lol. even though i'm kind of thinking that most will think it's weird.

off to studying though. i'm feeling confident about my exam because this is the most information i've been able to retain about biology EVER! 8D YAY!

ja~!

[ps.]
for those who don't know, i'm in school for nursing. :P

20 :] ~

2009-02-05T19:15:27Z

to my bb, legionairexx ♥
who turns 20 today~! 8D yay~!

i don't seem so cradle robbing since he's not a teenager anymore XD lol.

ja~!

REJOICE! ~

2009-02-05T06:19:01Z

the 3rd of my 4 w-2s came in today :D this one is from Starbucks... WTF IS TAKING MANDALAY BAY SO LONG?! D;

the one thing that bothers me when i look at my w-2s though... is the fact that i'm like "where did all of this money go? .___."

i need to be more frugal and actually save some this year...

anyway~ school is going pretty good so far. math is fucking easy, and this professor i have for biology... AMAZING! first time in a long ass time that i've been enthusiastic about learning science.

now what i'm not enthusiastic about is the fact that i have exams next week. :[ so over the next week or so, i plan to spend 10+ hours straight up studying. because i need to... seriously, i can't risk not passing this class.

soooo yeah. i've been awake since 5am, so it's beginning to sound like laying down time 8D

ja~!

it's been 3 months ~

2009-02-02T03:43:02Z

and i'm pretty much starting to hate my job.

my boss is like turning into a parent in which in his eyes i can never do anything right. but at the same time, it's hard for me to fully respect him because HE'S A FUCKING MORON! (he asked me how to spell OWE.)

and if i would've been fucking TRAINED RIGHT, maybe i wouldn't exactly be like this. it seriously seems like everything i touch gets lost.

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

i wish i could fast forward 2 years to graduation so i can gtfo of customer service, seriously.

this should be a BIG motivator for me to do well in my classes, lol.

homework time. :P

ja~!

[p.s.]
what really sucks, is that i'm now kind of regretting not taking the job with allegiant air... but what also really sucks, is that i need a job that'll offer me benefits in the future, and the silverton does that.

MUNNY NAO PLZ! DX ~

2009-01-31T20:49:54Z

it is frustrating the shit out of me that i don't have all of my W-2s in yet. sucks that i have FOUR and i bet that the last 2 companies waited until today to send them (since it's the deadline) XP.

if that is the case i better have them in by next week. it would be nice to have that money for when i go to louisiana in march.

anyway.

devin turns 20 on february 5th (NEXT WEEK, OMG! 8D). my bb is not gonna be a teenager anymore~ it's kinda funny to think we got together when he was 17... we're getting old now. D:

aside from that though, i don't have much to update because life really has just been work, school, work, school, work, work, devin, work, work...
oh the mundane life of a college student.

but, honestly. it's pretty good. all things i've been riled about have simmered down. :]

and of course... i'm off to work now. ;P

ja~!

fallen behind ~

2009-01-27T20:16:44Z

so lately i've been seeing people i knew in high school online and such. i don't necessarily talk to them, or even care all that much really. the only thing i've been checking is where they are in their lives.

a few have made me feel like i've fallen behind. before things went to shit in high school, i was the ambitious, smart one that everyone assumed would be highly ranked in my class. when in reality i was far from it.

some of my former classmates are applying for college graduation now, while i've had to restart and rethink what i want to do in the future because of the mistakes i've made while at UNLV. and even though i regret messing up and falling behind... there's one thing i'm proud of.

and i don't mean this towards anyone specifically because for some it was what needed to happen.

i'm glad i didn't get knocked up.

off to school now.

ja~!

tyson 8D ~

2009-01-26T08:19:40Z

welcome my new family member:

he's named after tyson ritter. 8D

him. yeah. ♥

anyway, it was completely random that i got one today. i'm not gonna complain though.

had a good day and weekend overall (aside from being a little sick). need sleep now though. mondays and wednesdays are long days with the combination of work and class.

gotta do what i gotta do though. :]

ja~!

simmer down ~

2009-01-24T10:10:29Z

i'm sure i'm just looking too deep into things. but these blatant things you are doing, while they may not be that blatant to you, are frustrating me and hurting my feelings a little bit.

and now i'm tired not just from work, but from crying a little.

I
HATE
IT.

i'm gonna lay in bed to simmer down, and then probably fall asleep.

i just miss you like crazy right now because it's only been 12 days since i've seen you, but it feels like you were never here at all... and that's what kills me.

ja~!

i got it done. ~

2009-01-21T06:59:10Z

so i uploaded all of the pics from devin's winter break... just failed to post a link here 8D

anyway, this album includes game night and new years. sorry g-pa, all pics went up. XP even ones i don't like. DEAL! DX link is HERE!!!!. they're organized on the side.

i just mass uploaded them so some got resized. if you want the original, tell me ;P most are still good and large though. 8D

expect a post in the morning. i'm feeling chatty since i've slacked on updating again.

ja~!

uploading so soon?! :o ~

2009-01-14T03:43:06Z

so i went through my memory stick last night. rotated all of the pics and fixed some red eye in a few.

found out that if i make the red eye fixer rectangle thingy too big on annette it makes her face gray since she is so pink tinged 8D lol.

there are a lot though, so give me some time. i'm taking daisy for a walk while another 50 upload.

there are around 385 pics :P yay!

anyway... maybe expect a link to the new album tonight? we'll see :D

i am a little upset with myself though XP i wanted to be a little productive at least, but then i conked out until 5pm and lost my whole day ; 3 ;

i will persevere tomorrow! D< work from 5am - 12:45pm.

ja~!

miserable. ~

2009-01-12T19:34:24Z

i hate this feeling.

i wish it didn't have to be like this.

*sigh*

my chest hurts, and i just want him to be here with me. T__T

LAME. this distance thing needs to end soon... we need to figure out something.

ja~!